what the %^$#^ is WRONG with you ?
Posted: 07 Jan 2011 09:41
In This Thread: describe what you personally believe to be your primary Major Malfunction .....
I think now that the shock-trauma that messed me up and is at the root of most of my borderline behavior
is not realizing at the age of 17 that just about everything I'd been taught about the United States of America,
it's history, people, culture, values, beliefs, &etc was a fucking horseshit lie to cover-up the guilt of imperialism,
genocide, white supremacy, and protect the one-percent of the citizenry that owned and controlled everything,
it was that when I confronted my Daddy with this, with the solid evidence that contradicted his patriotic, flag-
waving, Greatest Nation on the Face of the Earth jingoist value-system, he just nodded and agreed with me ....
Uncle Ed was in the rocker and Daddy was on the church pew we used for a bench on the front porch, and I
was standing on the steps, in jeans and a white t-shirt and black engineer boots, and Ed said "Yep, that there's
about the size of it ...'course it ain't just us, now ... Americans, I mean ... hell, all them white northern europeans
is some deceitful rat-bastards ... always have been."
and Daddy said, "Yeah, I always thought there musta been a deal with the devil in there somewhere."
and Ed spit tobacco juice over the rail and said, "When, right about mid-fifth century ? After them Visigoths whipped Rome's ass ?"
and Daddy rubbed his beard and said, "Aww, before that, but yeah, that was the reward ... course now, them Gauls got there first ..."
and Ed said, "By Golly, you're right, I forgot about them ..." and right about then something just ... snapped in my brain,
and I ain't been right since ....
I think now that the shock-trauma that messed me up and is at the root of most of my borderline behavior
is not realizing at the age of 17 that just about everything I'd been taught about the United States of America,
it's history, people, culture, values, beliefs, &etc was a fucking horseshit lie to cover-up the guilt of imperialism,
genocide, white supremacy, and protect the one-percent of the citizenry that owned and controlled everything,
it was that when I confronted my Daddy with this, with the solid evidence that contradicted his patriotic, flag-
waving, Greatest Nation on the Face of the Earth jingoist value-system, he just nodded and agreed with me ....
Uncle Ed was in the rocker and Daddy was on the church pew we used for a bench on the front porch, and I
was standing on the steps, in jeans and a white t-shirt and black engineer boots, and Ed said "Yep, that there's
about the size of it ...'course it ain't just us, now ... Americans, I mean ... hell, all them white northern europeans
is some deceitful rat-bastards ... always have been."
and Daddy said, "Yeah, I always thought there musta been a deal with the devil in there somewhere."
and Ed spit tobacco juice over the rail and said, "When, right about mid-fifth century ? After them Visigoths whipped Rome's ass ?"
and Daddy rubbed his beard and said, "Aww, before that, but yeah, that was the reward ... course now, them Gauls got there first ..."
and Ed said, "By Golly, you're right, I forgot about them ..." and right about then something just ... snapped in my brain,
and I ain't been right since ....